Gordon

2011-11-14T20:07:00.000-08:00

难道我连伤心吃醋的权利都没有了吗？口口声声说的好朋友，一起单独聊天，单独吃饭，单独运动，这种和你当了朋友这么多年都曾未和你经历过的事..让我感觉再也不重要了，不对，应该说重来都没重要过..你真的认为我能不以为然地面对吗？尤其是面对自己喜欢上的你..
这阵子大家都都让我觉得因为喜欢上你，而渐渐疏远了我..难道我真的不能喜欢上你？喜欢就已经喜欢了..已经喜欢上的你你要我怎么说忘就忘，再这样下去只会让我觉得劣势..我要的不是你的同情，更不是你的愧疚，而是你的真心..
你说你不可能喜欢上一个，能喜欢上这么多人的人。但这阵子，我的脑海只有你..如果时间能回转的话，我就不会这么单纯了。当初不该告诉你我喜欢过的人，当初不该让你知道我喜欢的是你..也许，事情就不会到这个下场了..
也许我太自私了，不该想把喜欢的人占为己有，给我一点时间，我会改的..为你而改变。

2011-06-27T13:59:00.001-07:00

don't really believe in karma..but now it really makes me wonder.
first,a group of friends of more than 10 splitted into groups and ended up with 4people not long after i joined them.the other group stopped going out together not long after i joined them.second,there was an earthquake the day after we left phuket.third,kpop became popular after we came back from korea.forth,there was a tsunami and earthquake after we came back from japan.fifth,dbsk splitted into 2 groups not long after i started listening their music.what the heck did i do in my previous lifetime?

2011-05-03T05:36:00.000-07:00

Lol!all sorts of stuffs happened to me.i played snooker and my fren was watching my shot,but the ball i shot flew right into his face.hahaha!u shld have seen it.then i went to aston's just now and supposed to pay the bill.i stuffed the shillings into the pocket of the billboard thinking it would be easier for the man to take the money as it wont fall off,but it turned out that the man was struggling to take out all the coins!haha!then there's also this time i went to a prata shop,i ordered lotsa food and a teh tarik.i tried to push my bag further but ended up breaking their glass!then i couldnt finish my food and didnt touch the prata,i asked if i could refund it,that indian guy was pissed with me.then there's this time i was walking to a top man and i was thinking of smth,but ended up walking into the glass door without even opening it!and that time i went to my sch bringing my frens wanting to play badminton but found out that the sports hall has closed down.and my first phone i lost on the second day..lots of things seem to happen to me..

2011-04-23T16:35:00.000-07:00

你爱过吗？怎么知道你是否真的爱一个人？每当你站在他旁边，都会有心跳加速的

感觉，在一个人山人海的地方,你的眼里却只有他，就算赴汤蹈火，为他牺牲都觉得

是值得的,时时刻刻不停地想着他在想再在做些什么，会不会遇到危险，那就对了..

"她"就是你最爱最爱的人..如果问某些人爱情是到底是什么感觉的话，有些人会说

爱情会让一个人痛苦，有些人会说爱情会让一个人觉得很甜蜜，有些人会说爱情会

使人变美，但大多数的人都会同意爱情这东西一点都不简单..那到底谁对谁错呢？

其实全部都对，只是每个人经历的，感受的，都不同..例如；你爱我，我爱他。你

爱他，我爱你。你爱他，我爱他。他爱你，我爱你。他爱我，你爱我。我爱他，你

爱他。我爱你，你爱他，她爱我。

2010-12-31T08:00:00.000-08:00

2010-11-13T07:23:00.000-08:00

2010-10-30T01:44:00.001-07:00

i wonder if 2 people held on to a plank that can only hold one of them to survive,would anyone sacrifice themself?perharps,the plank of Carneades shows human's true colours..is that self-defense,self-love,or just plainly selfishness?

2010-10-15T11:01:00.001-07:00

fans seriously have no life..i mean,yeah i know sometimes you get amazed and attracted some pretty or wonderful idols,but do they have to go mad over them and make it sound like it's the end of the world without them?they have their own life too..when can they stop living in someone elses life?

2010-10-03T11:07:00.000-07:00

sigh..just finished ko3guo and regretted finishing it so fast..好舍不得。no matter in 终极一班，一家，or三国,it never fails to amaze and touch me..this tells me that no matter in school,family,or in the society,like could be fun!life's what you make it;D however,the reality is always far from my fantasy..however,i will put in my fullest to make my life as fun and worthwhile as it can be..watch lots of drama series,here are some of the best,斗牛要不要，花样男子（流星花园korean version），cinderella man,原来是美男，花样少年少女（jap version)海派甜心 and etc..next looking forward to playful kiss and personal taste!

2010-07-21T11:31:00.000-07:00

glued to korean,taiwan,jap dramas lately,原來是美男,cinderella man,boys over flowers,hai pai tian xin,and lots more,and recently gpt stuck with truckloads of projects and presentation..till i have no time for com..

2010-06-28T12:32:00.000-07:00

when i looked at the paper and saw full marks for organizational behavior,i could not believe my eyes..probably the first time!and 2 marks away from full marks for engineering accounting.first time i had 2 As and a B..i guess,that's the difference between studying and not studying..when i don't study,i just get a pass..hope that these marks will be consistent for the rest of the exams..

2010-06-27T14:26:00.001-07:00

school just started,but it feels like holiday already..one month of studying..and everything will be over..just for a period of time.it's this school,so dead that it took the smile off me..looking at baby pictures,or even pictures from months,years ago makes me wish how i could travel back to the past and let the joy repeat over and over again..

2010-06-24T10:17:00.000-07:00

omgomg!huang jing lun is so funny!!!

2010-06-20T20:40:00.000-07:00

黄靖伦-咸鱼

天刚亮
雨滴落房间的窗
我像咸鱼躺床上
一天接着一天
我连呼吸都厌倦
忽然发现早已忘记
对这世界该有什么感觉
连悲伤都不会
忽然惊觉这个世界
少了我也没有什么差别
我想我需要点改变
起了床
今天眼神不一样
抛弃咸鱼的目光
背包装满能量
帆布鞋陪我去闯
忽然发现早已忘记
对这世界该有什么感觉
连悲伤都不会
忽然惊觉这个世界
少了我也没有什么差别
我想我需要点改变
忽然发现换了一面
看这世界就会找到特别
就算翻身很累
咸鱼翻身那天我会记住
你的笑脸当作纪念
我期待你害怕这天
就算雨会淋湿身体
会淋湿身体
拒挡快晒干的咸鱼
忽然发现早已忘记
对这世界该有什么感觉
连悲伤都不会
忽然惊觉这个世界
少了我也没有什么差别
我想我需要点改变
忽然发现换了一面
看这世界就会找到特别
就算翻身很累
咸鱼翻身那天我会记住
你的笑脸当作纪念
我期待你害怕这天
我的人生自己决定
我的旅行自己履行
我的人生自己决定
我的旅行自己履行

2010-06-15T01:16:00.001-07:00

today went to play cage early in the morning after breakfast.we reached the cage at 9plus and played soccer.a group of soccer team whom are friends of my brother's friend.we have played with them 4 times,and each time there were bound to have quarrels among them and the other players.all the while,the keeper seemed sore to my eyes.their team plays so badly and have a screwed up attitude.finally,one of them slapped Benjamin tan's brother face out of the sudden.all of us walked to them to see what has happened.The guy shouted at us that he's the captain here and asked us to return to our position.although my brother is the host,i walked up to him and shouted"who is the host here?"then he chickened out and say i know it's you guys,and i apologized for all this shits.feeling unhappy that he slapped my friend's brother, i stared at him.unhappy with my stare,he came to me and ask if i wasn't happy with him.i shouted at him not to play with us if he wants to slap people faces.seriously,i almost landed my fist on him,but i knew it wasn't wise to do so.if i was Benjamin,i would have beaten the hell out of him for that slap.These guys,seriously have nothing to do..

2010-06-14T10:59:00.000-07:00

recently i have been watching drama serials and have been wondering why is everyone's life in drama serials and movies so fun and mine seems to be so boring why can they show so much respect within each other,but we seem to take each other for granted,why do whatever they do seems to be so interesting,fun but the same thing that we do seems to be otherwise.I guess there's a need for a change.jap,korean,Caucasians shows alot of gentleman and respect to each other,but we?there's a saying,the closer u become to someone,the respect within each other will be lessen..i guess that's true.

2010-05-16T02:21:00.000-07:00

it's been long since i blogged,now i'm going to post about my life story.wanted to deposit my money into an atm today and guess what?that dammn machine tore my 50dollar bill.sigh..sometimes i seriously think that my life can become a jokebook.

2010-05-13T12:08:00.001-07:00

hahaha!so cute..

2010-05-10T04:06:00.001-07:00

omg,just love this two..

2010-04-14T18:12:00.000-07:00

slept for very long and dreamt of someone skirt getting blown and i saw her underwear-.- sick dream,better not say who is it.zzzz

2010-04-12T15:34:00.000-07:00

omg..total cuteness! D=

2010-04-07T11:59:00.000-07:00

went to G spa after cleaning for qing ming,which was quite random.but somehow,i loved it.i had more than 10 glasses of juice,3 plates of food and made me sleepy after that.watched tv on a massage chair,then went steam and sauna,which i haven't went for ages.then went to the cold and hot pool,felt really..hot,but relaxing.fell asleep for two hours in this sofa room with a waterfall in the middle,then went for massage.it's a total paradise inside,as if i had come to a diff world..the place didn't look that big from the outside,but inside it's super!so..i swear that i must be rich one day,and own the biggest house and company than anyone had..i told myself,with all the money in the world,you may not definitely be happy,but without money,we will definitely be unhappy..life is that realistic,and reality is cruel..if only i could be part of f4..well,that's just a fantasy..but i hope one day it will come true..

2010-03-16T22:14:00.000-07:00

recently glued to flowers over boys and cinderella man..sigh..if i only i could be as rich as them..

2010-02-17T04:03:00.001-08:00

2010-02-16T14:42:00.000-08:00

2010-02-16T13:46:00.000-08:00

love snsd!

2010-01-24T01:31:00.001-08:00

i just love purple..

2010-01-15T20:02:00.000-08:00

sigh..today ps-ed jiawen,rachel and the gang:( then this morning prashanth and the gang asked if i could join them for sentosa,then siu hei asked me to go pasir ris park..when i've alrdy decided to go lan with the gang..
GOD!!IS THIS A PRANK?
why must all good things come at the same time..and ruin my day..and other days no one called me out?it happens all the time!sigh..

2010-01-03T11:26:00.000-08:00

went to get mc for two days and went to nigel's chalet.though we didn't do much,but it was still fun.pity i couldn't stayed till the end.getting mc means cursing yourself to get sick,as a result,i was sick.the bad air-con made it worse..then went back to the boring,stupid,f@#$king god-dammn school..for a day,then off to malaysia,intending to go for a weeding dinner.in the end,didn't went for it,and ended up most of the time eating and sleeping,which was quite fun somehow..

2009-12-21T07:22:00.000-08:00

supposed to meet wei chong,the two nigels,siu hei,daniel,rachard,and my brother to play left4dead2 today,but wei chong failed to wake up and both nigels couldn't make it.as a result,we ended up with the rest.made rachard wait for 2 hours and felt a little bad.then took a bus to bugis and wanted to have our dinner at illuma and catch a movie after that.however,student meal was not available after 6p.m,so we went down,but decided we shld check out the movies showing,but found out there were not much movies to choose from,then we decided to eat carl's junior,but found out there isn't one in bugis..so,we walked to suntec city and found out there isn't carl junior's again..then we walked one big round to try and find the exit,but ended up where we came from again..then siu hei remembered that it is at marina square so we crossed the road and he was stuck on the other end.when we finally reached and had our meal,the burger was too big and we were too bloated to continue eating.then we traced around the spiral staircase and went around the fountain of wealth.so the whole day we went round and round and kept ending up at the same place.however,i must say,it's been so long since i had so much fun and jokes all day..still can't believe i'm able to mix around my brother's click,and he's able to mix with mine..

2009-12-12T12:00:00.000-08:00

went to ivan's bbq party on saturday.never dreamt that i would ever see you and you again..feels like a dream,a fantasy turned nighmare when you were gone again..watching the same scenario where i thought i should have long been used to,could my heart was tearing beneath me,till it bled dry..gazing at the stars where u pointed which i can't see,perharps we don't belong to the same world..but,can you tell me?why do i still feel..

2009-12-08T09:14:00.001-08:00

aww..yoona,jessica and tiffany are so hot.

2009-12-06T07:59:00.000-08:00

2009-12-05T09:23:00.000-08:00

went for miss wong wedding at holy presbetarian or smth church today.slept only at 6plus in the morning and woke up at 12.prepared everything and waited for wei chong until 1.30p.m..and we're supposed to reach at 2p.m!!took a cab and the uncle did not know of such a church!gawwd..then i tried reading the map and finally led us to the destination.boy!that guy's lecture is sure worse than any other lecturers!due to lack of sleep and that addition of boredom,i almost fell asleep.felt rather down down down down down~today.was wondering whether it was the lack of sleep or because i felt my presence was unnecessary.here are some pictures we took.let's wish miss wong a bliss marriage!;D

once again,discovered the feeling of what it's like to be ignored or rather left alone..it's smth u will never know until you experience it yourself.it made me communicate with others who are always being left out..

2009-12-05T08:45:00.000-08:00

two of my best frens in class!
tsui siu hei,the 22 year old hong kong boy.went ns before poly.samuel,the new zealand boy.

2009-12-05T03:27:00.000-08:00

beginning to feel that handphones are the worst creation ever..without it,we would try harder to be on time,try harder to confess,make it harder to contact and helps human aprreciate other's presence more..messaging sucks.there is neither emotion,nor tone to it.it makes it easy to be misunderstood,and keeps us busy..sigh..

2009-12-05T03:22:00.000-08:00

i love the night..especially at the beach.gazing that serene view simply helps me forget all my troubles,but makes me kinda sad..the lights are like stars,or tears,blinking at me..

2009-12-02T10:58:00.000-08:00

Girl, im going out of my mind~~
and even though i dont really know you~~
and plus im feeling im running out of time
im waiting for the moment i can show you~~
and baby girl i want u to know, im watching you go ,im watching you pass me by

its real love that you dont know about...

Baby i was there all alone.. when you'd be doing things i would watch you
i'd picture you and me all alone .. im wishing you was someone i can talk to
i gotta get you out of my head but baby girl i gotta see you once again~~

its real love that you dont know about..

Every now and now i go to sleep, i couldn't stop dreaming about you
your love is got me feeling kinda weak.. i really cant see me without you
and now u're running around in my head im never gonna let you slip away again~~

its real love that you dont know about..

Every now and then when i watch you... i wish that i could tell you that i want you
if i can have the chance to talk with to you.. if i get up the chance to walk with you
then i would stop holding it in ..and never have to go through this again~

its real love that you dont know about..

Today when i saw you alone... i knew had to come up and approach you
coz girl i really gotta let you know ...all about the things you made me go through
and now she looking at me in the eye and now you get me open and now you dreaming
again~~

You're the one that i wanna know thatti can take it from me nononoo
even thought i dont really know you.. i gotta lotta love i wanna show you
and youd be right there infront of me.. i see you passing infront of me nonono
girl i need ur love ...baby i need ur love

2009-12-02T10:46:00.000-08:00

really missed 21 and 28 nov 2009!swear it's gonna be one of my greatest memories eva..

2009-11-27T06:11:00.001-08:00

finally two exciting movies to watch!

2009-11-21T21:15:00.000-08:00

up till now,still,i can't believe that i could sit so close to strangers,get along with them,share drinks with them,or buy birthday cake strangers and celebrate birthday for them,and get kissed by stranger,all for the first time..the night was serene,the wind felt breeze.remixed of emotions;it was heart-waarming,exciting,touching,but kinda sad..that stayed overnight at her house,lay beside them,laughed and chatted all night..that makes it one of the most special day ever..

2009-10-20T09:36:00.000-07:00

fallin' in love with loneliness..cos' nothin' ain't gonna confuse me anymore...
addicted to slamdunk!

2009-10-10T12:01:00.000-07:00

went orchard to have dinner with an old stingy billionaire in his new mercedez..and dad had to pay $2622.95!he didn't even look like he wanted to treat us>< dammn that tupid Shima restaurant,no wonder treat us so well.unagi-$225 matsuzaka-$625 seasonalfruits-$210 orange juise-$25 service charge-$222.85 gst-$171.59 and etc.. F*CK THE RESTAURANT!

2009-09-30T07:06:00.001-07:00

EARTHQUAKE!!!!!!!!!!!wonder if im the only one feelin it cause staying on the 16th floor near east coast..scary man,was playing maple halfway and wondered why the monsters begin to shake!made me a lil dizzy and somtachache,feels like seasick!hahas.

2009-09-22T12:40:00.001-07:00

been chionging maple these few weeks,finding ways to end this "no life"daily routine >_<..haven't been blogging..cause there ain't any diff in life..as boring,depressed as usual..so where did all those happy,thrilling-"high",surprising,heatbeat-racing,heart-melting,memorable momments gone to?seems like..it can only be buried within T_T

2009-09-16T00:51:00.000-07:00

went clubbing,went bbq and much more..haiz..like got nothing to blog anymore.life's very boring,i need lotsa entertainment,i need more life!i need more fun and joy!!!and people..T_T

2009-09-09T13:20:00.001-07:00

2009-09-04T09:47:00.000-07:00

OUT IN THEATRES IN JUNE 6!hahas.so i was bored..stuck to facebook.

2009-09-03T10:33:00.001-07:00

天天难过天天过，虽然难过还要过。忍一时风平浪静，退一步海过天晴

；忍不住刮风海啸，前一步给你一脚！

2009-09-01T21:16:00.000-07:00

wanted to upload pictures cause i thought blogger was back to normal.well it was,but for a short while..now can't upload again.wtf..

2009-09-01T20:52:00.000-07:00

i had a very LONG dream and i really thought there is an exam at 4p.m today..the story starts when my family and i were floating around in galaxy while standing on a ladder each.then i saw a dark hole,but it was like a ball shape.first,it hit my fingers,then it ram my face like a soccer ball before i could moved down the ladder.then we were quarelling over some galaxy topic,the sun,moon,dark hole,and everything.feels so weird.

next,my dad reminded me that there was an exam at 4p.m today which i totally forgot.then suddenly,i was in the canteen with bee lian,zhi yin and patrick.we were queueing up to pay for our food,then the two aunties kept insisting that i am from taiwan because i was imitating how they spoke,which i do idea why..suddenly,there's a very very enormous guy that tried to cutour queue from behind.he even tried squeezing beside me to get to the front.i wanted to punch him with my fist but i hit the air..and i kept missing and i felt i was very weak too.then i jumped out of the queue,took back few steps,and feeding him a flying punch,but missed.then he said he don't want to fight anymore,then i said ok.lol!suddenly,i realized we were going to be late for exam.then followed bee lian,zhi yin to take lift to a very high place.i was very afraid of heights.i was shivering and did not dare to look down.then we reached and had to get down a very high slope,i was grabbing the hand bars and crawing the ground taking step by step,slowly..they said the exit was going to close at 2p.m,so we rushed to take another lift to a cinema,this time it wasnt that high.we were waiting to take our exams near the snack bar that sold popcorn outside a CINEMA!then i came upon samuel and he asked me where is benjamin.
this dream..felt so real,that i was dancing to the beat when my phone rang in reality and really thought there's an exam when my maid woke me up..it is remixed with my family and friends.maybe it is trying to hint that they are the most important to me,trying to hint i'm very afraid of heights,and scared of exams.but no matter what,i have them to overcome it!:D

2009-09-01T20:33:00.000-07:00

went back outram for teacher's day.saw mr chillian and mr koh.they said nice hair..LOL.and i thought about those times when mr koh kept asking me to cut hair,and mr chillian cut my hair.then went miss lau's office and benjamin tan is as joker as usual,he's a good entertainer though.then went bowling at safra with bee lian,zhi yin,patrick and yik hung and saw dyan and his friends.after they left,zheng wei and jian wei reached then we requested to use both lanes.after we finished and were about to pay the cashier,we found out there's an extra 12 dollars we had to pay..meaning we had to PAY for 4 games,that we DIDN'T PLAY!i was like shouting,wtf?we had to pay for a game we didn't play?wtf are u talking about!despite the fact that the old china guy and that prostitude spoke in an aonnoying manner,the old man diao us and said we had to pay!i said,they didn't pay for the game and u return them their ez-links,how smart can you be?!we all kept quarreling back then in the end,we still paid..bitch!i just felt like throwing the money at his face and just walk off.curse they two @#$%@!%!@#$!ok..then we took a bus to vivo.then there's an old man beside be on the left.he kept repeating ah boy,can spare me 2 dollars?ah girl,can spare me 2 dollars?i was wondering if he's real or fake during the whole journey.i was about to give him,but realized i ain't got 2 bucks.haha.felt so guilty..then we ate at foodrepublic and went separate ways..
DYAN!!PAY US BACK OUR 12 DOLLARS!!ROAR!

2009-08-30T10:55:00.000-07:00

woke up at 11 today,finished my daily routine and then rushed over to safra and transfered bus to tampines stadium as i realized that i reached the wrong destination.played badminton,ran around the track three times,took a quick shower,and walked to tampines mall.i was walking behind siu hei and nigel while trying to find a way to walk beside them.haiz..just hate the feeling of being ignored,begining to feel that my existence is no longer important anymore.went swimming with siu hei after all that "shopping",then took bus to tampines interchange.took all the way to tiong to meet up with patrick,zhi yin,bee lian and jian wei,but came across wei xian with her art teacher at mac,and i thought that she was danielle cause she looked pretty much like a student.then we went to catch "the proposal".it's freaking funny,dirty,sad and inspiring.complete full control of our emotions.we were about to leave tiong but went back for my badminton racket as pat reminded me,and i thought u bidded blurness goodbye..strolled to mac with them and sat down there,figuring where to go.the ending was disappointing,and i don't mean the movie,but yeah..sometimes,it just sucks when out of ideas of where to go or limited cashflows.eventually,i took cab home.
two things i'm gonna do.first thing is to get a car license and a car asap.next,i swear one day im gonna make it big.though money isn't everything,but it can solve almost everything,and that's what we're studying for.it just feels good when nothing is in your way and could do whatever we fancied.

don't walk in front of me,i may not catch up.don't walk behind me,i may walk too fast.just walk beside me..

2009-08-27T06:51:00.000-07:00

went to final destination 3d!during the whole movie,i kena chua tio!throughout i was like shouting wtf and omg!!freak man..i thought is some racing show.in the end,blood everywhere,headless ppl,sticks poke through eyes,intestines come out,ppl grind through machines!wtf!sick show man!now i know why it's m18..plus its 3d!zomfg!the graphics super good can..managed to watch cause 22nd year old siu hei bought for us 3.somehow,we managed to get pass three checks!buying tickets,tearing tickets,and checking tickets.lucky they didn't bother to check me;p haiz..really feel im growing older..tmr going jogging,badminton,swimming,and watch final destination 3d again with pat,bl,zy they all.wanna buy a good looking cap but dunno whr got nice ones..haiz.

2009-08-25T06:44:00.000-07:00

freaking exams finally over!9weeks of holiday..where should i start..where can i go?haiz..

2009-08-20T10:11:00.000-07:00

just went downstairs to visit my neighbour's 90plus mu that just passed away,she was still alive in her wheelchair months ago..life's so fragile..we never know what's gonna happen next..so what if you're rich and own a few mansions?so what if you're smart and get all a's?we all gonna die one day..the most important thing is that we must enjoy life..enjoy doing whatever we do,have fun whenever we can..that's what i'm gonna "try" to do,cus' now,i gotta try to enjoy studying.. >_<

2009-08-20T08:47:00.000-07:00

tried to get down a bustop,but almost rolled down from the bus when i lose my balance when i tripped over myself as i lost my balance.i was trying to break my fall but ended up dancing in steps freaking loudly..everyone was watching at me as i stomped in my dancesteps.soo i became the laughing stock of the century.when i took my bus home,met my dad in the bus!what coincidence..then he asked me how well i prepared my exam for tmr..then i said.."exam?!?!,it's on friday dude.."he said,ya la!tmr is friday mah..i was like..wtf?!exam is tmr??!omg..and i thought i had a day to study..

it's been awhile since such things happened to me...again!

2009-08-19T11:30:00.001-07:00

haiz..engineering fundamentals this friday,engineering mathematics on nxt monday and last but not least,business fundamentals next tuesday..then..6 weeks of holiday!or more?or less?who cares!!but..who can i go to?where can i go..

2009-08-18T20:47:00.000-07:00

You'll never know how much you need someone until you haven't seen her for some time and begins to miss them.now i know the feeling,i miss my mum,"her",and all the happy times i had with all my friends.Thus,always wishing that time could rewind.i feel so old,okease stop the time,i don't wanna grow up,do you have to bring me to enclosure with this cruel world?just bring me to those happy moments,let time stop there and let me leave happily ever after..

2009-08-17T12:29:00.000-07:00

time to stop my horns from growing and stop letting my mind run wild,can't stand myself.lol.

2009-08-16T12:10:00.000-07:00

spent the day buying bag,slippers,and more clothes with my family.
i'm making more and more ppl to hate me when i meant well,don't know why,but yeah..freaking sad:(then i was looking at some old pics and made me miss more things that i didn't treasured..
so was listening this old song whole day and it kinda cheer me up:)

AFROMAN...BECAUSE I GOT HIGH.[UNCENSORED] - The best video clips are right here

2009-08-16T07:11:00.000-07:00

TO:ILLU
MOTHER FUCKER!WAD TOKIN U?U TOKIN WAD?WTF U TOKIN ABOUT?DO I EVEN KNOW U?FUCK OFF!

i'm a good guy,why must some dogs come and aggravate me?

2009-08-13T11:49:00.001-07:00

woke up with sorethroat and flu again,at least it isn't as bad as yesterday..almost couldn't climb up from bed after jogging around bedok reservoir and swimming ytd..had cramps,sunburn to make it worse..went to eat zhi char again with 4 other frens in poly at tam-pines.saw a ball in a basketball court,so we kicked the ball and start the ball rolling..played soccer and basketball with.then,we rushed back to lab with sweettalks.freaking wet..scored 26/30 for business fundamentals!wooo!tot i would fail..then we rushed to siu hei's house and put on his belt cause pants freaking loose..then grabbed his soccer and basketball and we went to play at a basketball court that's on top of the hill.most of the time,we tried to get the ball back T.T sports day tmr!gota play soccer,basketball and captain's ball!

2009-08-13T11:49:00.000-07:00

2009-08-12T04:57:00.000-07:00

woke up with bad sore throat today,felt sick,had flu,but after few minutes of printing assignments for engineering drawingm,we went to jog with a 22 year old guy in my class cause he went for ns before going poly..then we went swimming,chatted all the way till tampines mall,then eat zhi char.not a bad guy,hard to find friends i like in poly though:(

2009-08-12T04:32:00.000-07:00

happy national day singapore!went top one with pat,bl,zy and wc from 9.30 to 5.40p.m!ouch,throat pain..then went to meet jw to eat dinner at xin wang cafe.after that,we went to watch fireworks,freaking crowded>< then went to some underage clubbing or wadchucallthat..too bad wc haven 16:P the place not too bad..except,too small place for much movement,even had difficulty walking atound-.- then went starbuck and cabbed home.spent abt 80 plus for the day,must be the most exp day.heartpain*but i think it's been long since we had much fun :d

2009-08-10T06:04:00.000-07:00

zzz..my house have been renovating for two weeks..>_< can't even use internet..it's killing me!!!

2009-08-04T07:13:00.000-07:00

aww..today's 难兄烂弟 last episode.though the drama abit weird,but it is really so sweeet!;p

2009-08-03T09:11:00.001-07:00

today cycled with my bro to bedok jetty then to parkway,on the back,he almost got knocked down by a god dammn car.he wanted to cut across the lorry that was stagnant,when the car in front of that guy moved,he still somehow just kept driving on,even though he saw my bro,forming dents on the bike.i thought he scolded my bro,but he just asked if he's alright.should have asked him to pay for a new bike..like a bystander suggested.. ><

2009-07-31T10:49:00.000-07:00

happy birthday 小猪!30 years old!thanks for being so funny.haha

2009-07-30T03:49:00.000-07:00

zzz..i just hate it when some singaporean mothers hit their children.especially in front of others..even if it isn't their childrens' fault,they would just hit them in front of other ppl if anything goes wrong and say sorry to others just for 'face'.can't they give their children some face?must they resort to hitting them?haiz..just came across one today,feel so sad for these children..

2009-07-29T06:29:00.000-07:00

dammn,today's 难兄烂弟is so sweet.see le very happy.

2009-07-28T11:46:00.000-07:00

just watched "click" again and i think kate beckinson should be one of the most elegant-looking for a caucasian..but hebe and mike still rocks!wished could be as fair as them.. :(

2009-07-27T08:01:00.000-07:00

just two weeks ago my dad was fined $300 for throwing a cigarrette butt on the floor by policemen that were camping in east coast at 3a.m..now what?200 over ppl got fined for bringing/consuming tiny mini snacks or drinks?c'mon,what harm could it bring?don't you have better things to do?why can't you just concentrate on ensuring our safety?that's what you're paid for anyway..i don't think that's your only source of income isit?you've got a casino out there!and what abt taxes?for god's sake,get a life!..or is it that you don't have enough trouble?need me cre8 some for you?please..stop that exorting,we aint that rich y'know?

2009-07-26T00:37:00.001-07:00

watched harry potter and the half blood prince today!skipped engineering maths and went straight for lab.supposed to go play lan but i didn't want to..so went home,played a match of dota with my bro and his frens.then went to play basketball with them and lied on my bed as soon as i got home..however,i soon fell into a deep slumber and woke up at 7!the time i was supposed to meet them for dinner and catch the movie after that..the show isn't that bad as some ppl says,except that the story's ending is quite incomplete and is a lil disorganised..and it seems like we were watching a long introduction.the scenery and other stuff is quite cool..if only my school or life was as entertaining and beautiful as them:( quite sad,professor died.if only i could join their school..

emma watson is hot..

2009-07-22T06:10:00.000-07:00

woot!!just realized that there will be no more engineering after year 1!!!all biz and maths!!i'm love it~;)

2009-07-22T06:06:00.000-07:00

cool,last time we used to say someone got a total eclipse of our heart..now,today,we've got a real total eclipse in china and inndiaa!saw it in channel newsasia in bus on the way to tp that it might move to bangladesh or japan,it looks super niceee..

2009-07-21T08:27:00.001-07:00

just couldn't open my mouth,and tell you how much i love you..not once,not twice,not thrice,but umpteen times..till i may even not see you ever again..best song for my story ever.. T_T 就是开不了口让他知道，就是那么简单几句我办不到，整颗星悬在半空我只能够远远看着，这些我都做得到那个人不是，我..

2009-07-21T08:24:00.000-07:00

suddenly realized i so dumb,spent money to dye my hair and got it damaged,got nicknamed as monkey..LOL.dammn,suddenly i wan my hair back black now-_-

2009-07-20T07:00:00.000-07:00

decode the message of the day.if u can decode,ur really smart!;d

Dinner Over Night 'T
YOU
KiNg Our War
Had Our War
Man U Cannot Help
I
Man I See Something
Yeah Our Unity?

DON'T YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS YOU?.. :(

2009-07-20T06:18:00.000-07:00

suddenly feel so dejected and rejected:( not only once,but twice.not only twice but thrice,not only thrice,but0 it's for eternity..when i thought i was needed,who knew it isn't so..i thought if i missed someone,they would too,but that's a lie.i've been fooling myself all these while..gotta wake up from that fantasy i'm having..the reality is not as sweet u think it is.. T_T

2009-07-20T05:03:00.000-07:00

zomfg..5 minutes before,my3rd bro lost to me in dota 3 times then he hit me and ran.Next,i chased him,he ran to some balls and threw them at me,then he ran to the kitchen.I picked up a ball and aimed it at him,who knew the ball bounced off a corner and flew up to the kitchen's light."piang!"the light dropped down and shattered into peices as it hit the basin.oh no..then my 2nd bro took the ball and tried doing some tricks,i tried juggling the ball and it went too high,and landed on plates of food!GOSH..there went everything..haven't had so much surprises for so long..and and..my wireless internet connection can't seem to work anymore..the only thing i could do now i steal internet connection from neighbours whom i have no idea about..tmr a guy coming and see wad happen for 80 bucks-.-f*cker..

2009-07-19T08:57:00.000-07:00

aww..i know this is kinda random,but i miss c.o hong kong trip and my family korea trip!nth matter more to me than my family and frens:( singapore's boring..especially poly!!T_T

2009-07-18T11:50:00.000-07:00

went swimming with pat,yk and chris at lower delta swimming complex today.feels good to be in the water again since i haven't swam for quite a while.talked about random stuffs and one of them was comparing muscles where yk kept showing them off to us.LOL."cold water" kept pouring on him,if u get what i mean.XD then went to eat desserts at tiong and had ban mian at kopitiam.it's been long since i went there and had ban mian,麻辣海鲜板面is still as hot as usual-.-freaking hot,then we moved on to arcade where pat shot the balls and scored 600plus..last but not least,we competed with super mario car racing!boy,it was fun!even though i came in last..-.- not long after,we went separate ways and the story ended..

2009-07-17T13:13:00.000-07:00

2009-07-17T07:46:00.000-07:00

todaY was late for engineering maths lecture,so went for engineering lab stright..was pretty tired and as a result,overslept for five bus stops and took the bus back.after that went to eat chicken rice,then took direct bus to clarke quay from bedok interchange.slept in ther bus..then went play left 4 dead!!again,yeaps:p
then we took bus to raffles city.walked to suntec city,then continued to marina square.they wanted to check out the topman shop,then they wanted have beer and sit down to chat,wanted to drink starbucks,but figured that i join them,so finished a bottle of green apple vodka for first tired,quite giddy,but okay luh..haha.

2009-07-15T11:25:00.000-07:00

haiz..school's still as boring as usual,only for polys..T_T
engineering drawing changed to computerized but still didn't know a thing until today where we had a little test,where i finally saw the light.

i feel like a bird in a cage,when will the day where i'm finally freed?

2009-07-12T10:33:00.002-07:00

pictures during jovial's birthday!(thks to jianwei).though benjamin has taken advatnage of me last time,but i'm still glad i had him as one of my best frens.though he's very xl sometimes,but he's got a good heart and is a very good entertainer.XD and of course..wei hao and hhf!thank u guys for being part of my memories.. .T_T.

2009-07-12T00:09:00.001-07:00

just woke up at 3p.m.went to eat at aston's ytd with chris,yik hung,patirk,zhi yin, bee lian and xue ting.coincidencely met hwee leng,wan jing zhi yun,benedict and few other ppl,then we went arcade.played the basketball thing still could not beat pat,then played driving but still lost to yik hung.last but not least,played the big big hammer thing and hit the thing which will have a score and got 893!but i think the thing is quite fake though,cause got one big muscle guy hit 865 at first attempt.
then abt 2.30 a.m,dad brought me to east caost to eat wings,fries and rootbeer float.and..guess what?we were trying to play who can kick highest and put our leg between the tree branches,then suddenly someone called out to us.at first,i thought we were not supposed to kick the tree or smth,but who knew,it was a police officer that saw my dad throw a cigarrette butt on the floor and gave him a fine of 300dollars!come on..it's alrdy 4a.m alrdy,why are u police so free?!!??!instead of finding ways to snatch our money,why don't you go and find robbers?!or they are broke because singapore is too peaceful and have no robbers to catch,no income so exort money from us?come on,get a life.i think police are seriously useless.they always come after a fight is over,or when somebody is dead.soo..what's the fucking point?!the gorvernment too,finding ways to exort money from us,and these bunch of idiots doesn't want to close down schools for a period of time and would rather the whole singapore get h1n1 then decide to close down?zzz..give us a break will you?

2009-07-10T13:02:00.000-07:00

celebrated jovial's birthday today.after school,was supposed to watch ice age(3d) with poly ppl,but don't didn't really feel like going.rushed home after meal and played dota from 1 plus till 5 and met wan jing,rebecca and shabira at bugis mrt.at last,jian wei and jovial came,then we went to the wadchucalldat cafe.ordered food and played a snatching game while waiting for benjamin and yk.ate slowly and soon came the two musketeers.benjamin came in a white singlet and got new jobs named by them suchas fishmonger,the guy in the coffeeshop and the fisherman in kampong.we talked and ate,ate and talked and joked alot.after that,we walked to someplace near esplanade.the night was serene,making me a lil sad,and wished i could keep walking on with the nightview forever..perharps it's because i'm missing alot of things:(
yeah,both想念&遗失..

2009-07-09T01:09:00.000-07:00

this mornin i pulled myself up from bed unwillingly.thought i was late by half an hour,but ended up there's still some time to prepare,so i lied on bed then took a shower and still ended half an hour late.i was feeling a lil bored,lil sad,lil lonely,and a little tired..the whole day i was waiting for sch to end.lucky i presented my presentation last week,so this week i could go home at 3,at least that's what i thought.had kfc for lunch and i thought i could go home,but still had an hour of engineering maths.

during maths,samuel asked me to stay with him as he wanted to do his report with his partner but i was reluctant and was afraid to tell him,so i made an excuse to tell him i have piano lesson at 4,then it came to my mind that school ends 6 on thurs,so i told him i check the time to make sure and told him at 6,but he said he would end b4 that time;then wei chong called and samuel asked who's that,thanks to my quick brain,i told him it's my dad and he wants me to go to tampines mall and fetch me for my piano after that;p

after i bid farewell i met two of my classmates and asked me whr im goin.afraid that samuel would find out i cheated him,so i told them im goin tampines mall,and they were going the same way-.-they asked if i was takin bus 8,23 or others,i kept shaking my head,as though i didn't even know whr i was goin.
after they alighted i waited for them to turn another direction and then i ran past them from the bus and saw another classmate of mine,wen da>_< and he asked whr im goin so i told him tampines mall.he told me i could take any of the two bus in front of me,then i told him my fren would reach an hour later,so its okay to miss few buses.ensuring all of them left,i then headed to the opp bus stop and took my bus home feeling a lil bad ;p

life feels so tired;i don't even know what i want..

2009-07-07T06:35:00.001-07:00

zomfg..双至星last episode so sad:(

2009-07-07T03:47:00.000-07:00

dammn...lost my myob certificate,billabong jacket,sleeping bag,tp shirt during c.o camp:( i wished i could see them again..

2009-07-06T09:36:00.000-07:00

dumb asses,why are they just so stubborn?does giving us extended holidays hurt?what's a better decision,continuing school till all singaporeans get h1n1 then give us a break or giving us a little break till the condition is better?what's more important?health or some stupid algebras?what's the point of being brighter when u are dead?do u guys have brains?

2009-07-06T09:28:00.000-07:00

almost late for school today.reached school at 12p.m and went home at 2p.m.supposed to stay till 2 but i didn't feel like staying in school for classes.lol!wanted went cycling,but rained..ooh boy:( had to play dota until now,12.30a.m.

2009-06-28T09:39:00.000-07:00

missed my piano lesson cause i over slept today.then played dota till dinner time and went to eat with family at long beach restaurant.ate vege,crabs,drunken prawn and lobster raw.didn't really like eating crabs though.abt to reach desert when the waitress keep asked us if she could clear the table or take away,got annoyed,my dad asked if they are drving us away.the supervisor look abit unhappy when he talked to my dad,so as usual,he said,你这里是不是需要装修？do you need to renovate this restaurant?cause he told me in cambodia,his fren kept asking him if the food was good,otherwise they'll bomb the restaurant as flat as pancake..i love my dad,but i hate his temper.one moment he's funny,the next he's scary..

2009-06-25T10:27:00.000-07:00

got this frm cheng long's blog.dammn fucking funny can..

2009-06-20T19:37:00.000-07:00

i have a really good and bad news today.do you want to listen the good or the bad news first?this is a really funny story i encountered this morning.hmm..let me tell u the bad news first.
this morning i woke up,ate breakfast,then went downstairs to had laksa with my dad at coffeeshop.then i proceeded to the bus station and took bus 36 till i reached parkway.after i alighted the bus,i felt like depositing my money,abt 80plus dollars in atm,thaqt's when i noticed i left my wallet in the bus!!!my identity card,my school matrix card,my atm card,80 dollars and many many more..immediately,i tried chasing the bus with a full stomach,but..how can a person run faster than a bus..so i went for my piano lesson for 45 mins..the teacher helped my call sbs and i submitted a report and decided to file a police report.the teacher asked if i had money to take bus,and gave me a dollar..luckily,i did not have to walk home.

i could take any bus at the bus station,so i waited.coincidencely,a bus 36 approched me and so i hopped onto it.i called the sbs to report and asked the lost and found.i sat quite far and spoke quite soft,but the bus driver still managed to listen to my conversation.then he asked me if i lost smth,true enough!it was the same bus driver?!?!?!he returned me what i lost and that's when i trust there is god!i love u god!!whoever there in heaven thank you very much!!i think im the luckiest person on earth!!i don't think anyone could be that lucky!haha.sha ren you sha fu!

2009-06-18T23:38:00.000-07:00

one hour away from c.o camp..why must break camp?!why?!this is not the first camp breaking but first time im feeling so sad.zomfg..i really miss people in c.o..yes,every one of them..i don't wanna go back poly!!nooo..never.the thought of my life in poly give me shrills running down my spine.i hate my poly life.thank you guys for bringing back the real me where i can finally be myself..guess no one will ever know how much i detest being alone,and how lonely and devastating i am in poly and the days are going to be back in few days..i love c.o peeps,every one of them.haiz..my tears are flowing out of my eyes and rolling down my rosy cheeks,and my throat really hurts,cause i'm trying to hold back the tears,but to no avail..suddenly i feel so sad,so lonely..wonder when will i ever meet people like you guys ever again,when will the day be where i had so much fun..i can't help thinking..why can't time stop moving,why can't it stay like this forever?why can't i stay as a kid forever..我不想我不想不想长大！i really need more tissue paper now..为什么就是不能不说再见？why can't i ever not say goodbye,why?why?!i know this is dramatic,but i'm crying very miserably now..not trying to be sentimental,but i really hope i can see u guys in my life again..
CIAO for now..no mood to use the com..

2009-06-15T14:48:00.000-07:00

aww..suddenly i miss those times when i was in korea.though the food was bad,the event didn't seem so entertaining,but there was just something that kept the smile on my face..didn't really know what was it.maybe a different environment?or it was me that enjoyed what was there,though there was nothing much enjoyable..i just miss it there.